Shake it Off --- Confessions & Thoughts

[Drew Anthony]

[Drew Anthony]

Did PoV. Felt decent. Calculated my time. Looked good. Checked to see how many posts.... 36. Wait. 36 posts? Checks to see how many there are supposed to be. 37. Fuck. Fucky fucking fuck fuck. Looks back and see's that the first layer is missing a post. *sigh* The only thing that will make this better is if someone would have beat my time anyways. I think I might actually cry if my time would have potentially held up for the win.

I assume there's no re-doing in this challenge, right? It's not one of those.... as many attempts as you wanna do type challenges, right? Doesn't hurt to ask.

Kat shir

[Kat]

There's only one attempt sorry

[Drew Anthony]

Mar 4, 2015 23:59:30 GMT -5 Kat said:

There's only one attempt sorry

Pretty much figured as much.

[Drew Anthony]

Odds of me staying are slim at this point. With PoV not being an option, I immediately set out to see what potential votes I might have. I know I'm the target, which was confirmed by the way people have been replying to me and/or avoiding me. Christine even said that Shilpa is trying to mend things with her, where as Shilpa was very wishy-washy in her replies to me. Ika also told me that everyone wants me out. So... I am just shooting for 3 votes to stay. Getting 2 is too risky and will likely require me needing Rachelle's tie-breaker vote. So here are the 3 votes I feel I have the BEST chance at getting. It's a small chance, but a chance. And I refuse to give up...

1. Ika - We talked tonight, and I'm starting to realize just how much she did trust me. In my defense, I couldn't honestly ever tell. She's a hard person to read, and I was always skeptical. But at the end of the day, I think she might actually have my back in all of this. If her feelings of hurt can subside and she feels like the votes are there, I think I have a chance at this one.

2. Ash - Ash was someone I thought I would be fairly able to get. He hasn't indicated any anger after everything came out. But then Ika tells me that Ash was venting with her about me hurting him as well. So... now I need to work on this one again. My best selling point for Ash is that I did the whole MVP thing for him. Which is true. Yes, I had my own selfish reasons, but he was a huge factor in that decision. Even me working to save Ivette was part of me trying to establish more people for our side. Ash has always been a huge priority for me, and I need to make him see that.

3. Christine/Ivette - If Christine is vetoed, she's said that she will vote for me no matter what. She doesn't care if it ostracizes her. However, if she is vetoed, that makes my target much bigger, and perhaps less likely that Ika/Ash would vote to save me as well with Christine still in the picture. If Christine is not vetoed, then I am working to get Ivette's vote. Granted, this could be a toss up since Christine was originally the one who lead the charge to save Ivette, and the fact that I was the MVP who nominated her could be used in Christine's favor. I really need to spend tomorrow working on my relationship with Ivette. Obviously, I need to work on all of these, but mainly focus on this one tomorrow.

So... yeah, it's not impossible, but it's not looking promising either. Locking all 3 of these potential votes will be a stretch.

I feel like I have a snowball's chance in hell to get a vote from Craig, Chris, and Shilpa.

[Drew Anthony]

So, Ika comes to me yesterday and says she locked her vote in for me. I didn't even approach her about it. That's good for me, as long as she's not lying or doesn't change. Christine has told me she will vote for me no matter what. That means I just need one more... ok Ash.

Oh but wait... here is Ash's response... "I just can't stick my neck out for you if the votes aren't there."

To that, I say a giant FUCK YOU. I basically turned this game around for you Ash, and you're worried about making yourself look bad toward the "others?" You really think you are sitting in any better of a spot without me next week? Like, if you vote to save someone else, they AREN'T going to keep you any safer. I'm over him. Even if he does vote to keep me, I will play nice, but this showed a LOT about his loyalty. Ika just jumped head and shoulders above him. I only wish I would have realized Ika was a better ally from the start. 

I think I have about a 25% chance to get his vote. In the end, I think he knows that keeping me will benefit him, and if he doesn't, then I hope he's in for a rude awakening. I guess it will depend if he's comfortable enough believing that Ika will keep me. Ya know... just like I was so comfortable to dismantle a whole group of 9 and keep my secret MVP identity from everyone just to give him a chance to get his bearings in this game. Fuck that noise. 

If I leave, I will have a nice goodbye ready to go for everyone. <3

[Drew Anthony]

Ash hasn't messaged me all day. I want to still hope that he'll pull through, but I am pretty sure he's playing the avoidance game, just because he doesn't have the balls to tell me to my face. Well, Big Brother, I guess I put stock in the wrong people.

Who I want to see win the game: Christine, Ika, or Ivette.
Who I think is still deserving of a win: The three above plus Rachelle and Shilpa.

Ash - no balls, spineless
Craig - too bitter/whiny lol
Chris - too narrow-minded (stopped talking to me week 2 because of a comment i apparently said, yet managed to talk to me to make sure he was safe week 3 and that was it).
Dan - not invested

[Drew Anthony]

Ok, I would potentially be ok with Chris winning. We hashed some stuff out, and I see where his head was. Sucks that he and Christine know each other though from the perspective of someone who maintained alias up until my inevitable eviction.

[Drew Anthony]

*camera pans to Ika*

Nothing to say about that, eh?

Ash and Ika didn't even give me a goodbye in the eviction thread or respond to me online. Wow. All shade aside, and all game actions aside, I thought they were still at least decent enough people to give me that. Guess it just shows how ashamed they are or how little they actually care. smh

[Drew Anthony]

Ahhhh, there's the goodbye. Still didn't explain why she felt the need to lie to me. If I was going, I was going. It's not like I even tried to convince her to keep me. She came straight to me saying her vote was locked. I did start to doubt it as the eviction loomed, but I guess I should have doubted it earlier.

Also, I hope/pray Dan loses his jury spot due to his god-awful activity level. I'm in the pre-jury and I'm STILL probably giving more entertainment and flavor to this season. #4timemvp4jury