The Diary Room of Ash

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This round........this fucking round. It was not good. That's all I can say, it was not good. Well that's obviously not all I can say because you can clearly see I have a lot more to say below, but fuck me right. Drew really shit the bed. HE REALLY SHIT THE BED. I mean fuck, what an utter implosion. He was my number one ally in the game, and I didn't save him. Bold move? Yes. Smart move? Maybe not? I don't know. It was a tough spot to be in. Could I have saved Drew, yeah I could. I was one of the votes for Ivette. I could have been that switch to Drew that saved him and sent her home. But what would that have gotten me? I couldn't keep him. I would have been even more of a target than he and Christine would have been. My word would have been mud and I would have looked like Drew's bitch. My only safety would have been if I won HoH again but I now knew my spot. I was not Drew's number one I was his number two. I knew about him and Christine making deals with others since Shilpa told me, I knew he was shady as fuck, but the straw that broke the camels was how he let me get dragged through the mud being accused of being the MVP when it was him the whole time. He used me in this game and I'm not cool with that. So I voted him out, and I'm glad I was the one vote that decided whether or not he stayed. Good riddance.

That being said though, this round has been tough. Its brought a lot of alliances to light, which is good and bad. Its good because everyone has a better idea of where everyone stands, its bad because I feel like there's a large group that I'm not a part of. I feel like Shilpa/Rachelle/Craig are the block and they have their puppy dog Dan who shouldn't even still be in this game, and Ika who is all over the place in tow. That leaves myself, Ivette, Chris and Christine. So based on where I am right now, I have to create a brand new alliance. I could work with Rachelle, but I'm not an idiot, I know I'm not high up in her plans, so I'm going to target Chris as my next close ally. I've talked to him, and luckily we discovered that we knew each other, so that helped strengthen our bond even more. I'm still a bit wary of him, but honestly he's the best I got so I have to make it work. Funny enough I also plan on working close with Christine. Drew/Christine had to be separated, but I think she has bigger fishes to fry than me. I also want to keep up channels of communication with Shilpa and Ika, but I don't trust either of them as far as I can throw them.

It is paramount that either myself, Chris or Christine win HoH this round. Losing is not an option. If I win, I will be nominating Craig and Rachelle. Its time to draw a line in the sand. If they want to keep Dan in this game, fine, he'll be here to the end, but one of you won't be. Game on! Let's get going, time to crush some dreams!

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Well fuck this whole house. This is the type of bullshit why I hate Big Brother. I can only blame myself for not taking out Ivette when I had the chance, but I legit thought Shilpa would keep me safe. She's 100% right, I would have saved Chris, but why is she targeting Chris, why is she doing someone else's work. Why will fucking Ivette and Dan make the Final 3. Shilpa made the first strike against me and she better hope it connects because if I'm still in this game I'm coming after Shilpa and Rachelle. The sheep will be dragged to the end. I haven't had anyone to actually play this game with the whole damn time. This cast sucks. Chris is the only tolerable person who's not a fucking idiot. You have Ivette who is the equivalent of a rock. Dan who doesn't even fucking exist. I mean he must be one hell of a good fuck because considering his level of activity how the fuck is he still in this game. Craig is a fucking loser. Ika is a fucking idiot. Christine is shady bitch. And Shilpa is a puppet who has Craig and Rachelles hands so far up her ass I'm amazed she can even function.

I'm going to give the veto my best shot possible, but if I lose no fucking loss. I'll go balls to the wall and see what happens. I have some aces up my sleeve.

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DEAR HOUSEGUESTS: SUCK MY DICK! POV BABY!

Better luck next time ass holes.

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I'm so over this shit right now. This is the season on fucking scrubs. God I hope I win the next HoH so I can nominate Rachelle and Craig. Fuck both of them. I have the same 3 word conversation with Craig every fucking day. I'm sure he thinks I'm anti-social, but really I just can't stand him. Those three must have a pre-game right, I assume their all-star rejects who have played multiple seasons of this series, otherwise I don't know how so many idiots managed to team up together, and how Dan and Ivette keep getting dragged by them

Well hey, if they want to keep the scrubs in the game, I'm totally down with that. I'm also down for teaming up with Chris and Christine to vote for either Dan or Ivetter when one of them no doubt makes the finals. Because fuck all these losers for not playing this game. Fuck all these losers for being little bitches. I'm not going to award them for being fucking pansies. 

UGH and we just had this giant group meeting thrown by Chris. It was fun as hell BUT SO AGGRAVATING. Craig is so stupid, is is thirsty for that All-Star spot. He thinks he's some big player but he's actually a loser and I think he just realized during that chat the flaw in his game, AND ITS HILARIOUS. Craig is a loser, he got so mad when I said I just don't want to talk to him. HE LOST IT. He's such a loser. Sorry I don't waste my time talking to you when there's no point. I can't wait until he loses because this game means so much to him. He clearly thinks he's some Derrick or Dan type player, but really he's a joke. He's using two nothings to advance his game, and everyone knows what he's doing. He's about as tactful as a cactus driving a golf cart. 

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That challenge.......

Anyways, Rachelle won HoH, not terrible but not great. My only case to work with her is that it's in her best interest keeping me here. If I'm on the block come eviction I'm gone, and quite frankly that doesn't benefit her. I'm coming after her allies, not her. Christine is coming after her though. She should play her own game and nominate Christine and Ivette. But she's scared that if I win POV I'll use it on Christine, and that's because I will.

I 100% expect to be nominated even though it's a bad move for Rachelle. That group is so up each other's ass it's not even funny. I hope they all get all stars because apparently that will be enough for them to validate their shit games. The only person in that game who's done anything is Rachelle. Craig is a bitch, Shilpa gets lucky and I don't even need to comment on Ika and Dan. This will be an annoying round.

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Shocker....

Oh well time to pull out another POV win.

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Well its been fun guys. I fought my ass off in this game, but just never had anyone to play with. I guess I can regret voting out Drew, but I really don't there's no guarantee he would have beaten either Shilpa or Rachelle. It is what it is.

I hope this doesn't all boil down to me going away for one weekend and that alliance just steam rolling everything. UGH its so frustrating being beaten by Ivette and Dan. I don't want to just lay down and die, but I really don't have any other play. There is no reason for any of them to keep me.

I think I'll just post one final speech calling out how lame everyone is and announcing my support for Ivette and Dan. If these people want to be bitches and keep people who don't care about the game just for an easy route, fine, I'll vote for the person at the end who had the easiest path. I mean its a talent to be able to get through a game doing absolutely nothing. I just wish they actually put in some effort because it sucks watching them get far when the just don't deserve it.

Oh well I guess that's just how Big Brother games work. 3 veto wins, 1 HoH, saved from the block twice. That's nothing to be ashamed of. By the end of this that will be likely more than a lot of the people left in this game will be able to claim.

I'm proud of the game I played, and I'll gladly join the one true ally I had in this game in the jury. We may have never been included in their group, but we'll have a vote at the Finals, and I can't wait to not cast mine for Shilpa or Craig.