The Diary Room of Ash

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I was nominated

I was so amped after avoiding the block from Craig, and low and behold NOPE, Ash still has to take a seat. No rest for the wicked. I knew being away for the weekend would be hard to come back from, but I've been working hard socially since coming back. Now its time to kick it even further into overdrive. I'm going to insert myself up everyone's sphincter. MEET YOUR NEW BEST FRIEND ASH!

So now, fuck everyone, fuck the players, its time to get into the ZONE. Into the ASH ZONE. Its VETO TIME BABY! Everyone is saying how I'm up against sheep, how Harry will likely be removed, blah blah blah, whatever. TIME FOR ASH ATTACK. I'm going all in for this veto and I want to win. I want to show this hidden MVP punk who they're messing with. This word search is going to regret ever letting me search it because IM GOING TO WRECK IT! LETS DO THIS! WOOOOOOOOOOO HOOOOOOOOOO!

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Also hit me up Housecallers before I get #blindsided this round.

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Feb 17, 2015 23:05:53 GMT -5 sarah said:

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<33 good luck!

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I WON POV!

SUCK ON THAT MVP!

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What's the deal with Ika?

I don't get it, I guess she's trying to be entertaining and shit by posting those daily things, and I'm sure she's just waiting to kick off on someone and be OTTN5, but I've tried talking to her and she's boring as fuck. Are you trying at this game? Are you just suddenly going to flip the fuck out at some point? Are you crazy? What is your deal Ika?

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So I was talking to Drew and I was just like "People aren't really too social, nobody ever talks to me" and then he drops the bomb that there's was a group chat made at the beginning of the game just to chat, but its turned into some mega alliance. It includes everyone except me, Christopher and Sheila.




So I can look at this two ways. One, obviously its a good thing that Drew is telling me this. That means I have Drew on my side, but if they have some giant mega alliance and I'm left on the side lines with two people who are about as involved in this game as the couch cushions, I'm not exactly in the best spot. Especially because I'm the only outsider that actually does well at stuff. So if I end up on the block they'll likely screw me over.

Honestly though, I'm pretty pissed off. I've put in a lot of effort this week getting to know people and Drew even told me he tried to get me added to the chat and someone piped up and said "but he'll be able to see what we were talking about" so I don't get to sit with the cool kids. What pieces of shit. I bet it was Ika. Honestly, if I get lumped with the inactives that's total bullshit. Fair for this weekend since I was away, but I've been super active this week. I've reached out to everyone in the game except for Sheila. Hell I won myself POV! 

This round is crucial for me to establish an alliance. Drew has gotten the ball rolling and I need to keep it in motion. I need to get more people talking to me, and I need to get someone else to "reveal" this. I'm going to try on Christine, I'm just going to play the "poor me, nobody is talking to me, boo hoo" and see what I can get. Honestly I think this round will be all about nominating Christopher and Sheila, so I should have enough time to figure something out. I want to stay off of that block until I know I have people rallying behind me.

This is going to be an important round for Ash.

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Well I picked the right person to be social with. Drew must really like me because I'm getting a lot of info from him. Like how social Ika is in this game, yet when I talk to her I can't get more than 4 words to spew from her trap. I bet she'll have a lot to say when I nominate her ass at some point in the game. Or if I ever win an HoH, I'm sure she'll be right up my sphincter. Oh god how great would it be to win MVP and nominate her. 



He also told me that it was Rachelle who nominated me as the MVP. That fake bitch! We literally celebrated being safe after the initial nomination reveal, then she goes ahead and nominates me. Fuck her. I'm probably never going to trust her in this game, but I won't let her know that. We've talked a lot since she nominated so hopefully her opinion has changed of me. 

This literally feels like one of those moments where I'm dealing with an alliance that was formed of the first group of people who entered the house. Luckily those alliances don't always last. I always knew I was in the dark, but at least now I know what room I'm in. Time to find the exit.

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LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL at this round! Holy camole! First this round started off amazing, Drew won HoH and he is now my bff because 1) he's HoH so obviously BFF4NOW and 2) he spilled the beans on everything that has happened in the game so far, all because he likes talking to me. Social games works my friends, who would have thought.

Well he nominated predictably because it's early and he doesn't want a target, blah blah blah. Monet and Sheila, are they even here? Who knows who cares, they gotta go. Easy peezy. Except it wasn't so easy because that MVP challenge was a new form of hell. I literally got so close and just gave up. There's no way I would have found that last one, didn't even think of looking there, making a poll and seeing the image, genius, truly genius. Stealing that one for my own game

But the drama this round lies in the MVP nominating RACHELLE! Karma is amazing sometimes, suck it bitch! ON THE BLOCK! I'm 95% sure it was Christopher who won MVP, because he seems like the only person random enough to do it. Otherwise it could be Dan and he's doing this to try to frame me. I know Rachelle was MVP last round, but nobody else other than Drew knows I know that. So when I came online this morning and had a message from Ika being like "don't nominate me as the replacement if Rachelle wins" I was like, oh they think I'm MVP. I just played stupid, obviously Im not MVP so I didn't have to lie about that, but I was just like "Why do you think I'm MVP" and she went on some bullshit tangent. Obviously she couldn't tell me its because Rachelle nominated me last week, so she thinks its retribution, because Ika doesn't trust me. I'm not in "the group". Me and Christopher are the outsiders, so obviously it had to be one of us. They also think it could be Dan, but lets be real, its likely Chris. Its annoying that I'm seen as the MVP but I have nothing to hide. They're the ones that have alienated me, they're the ones that don't include me on game talk. Fuck them. If Rachelle stays up, I'm voting to evict her. I know she won't go, but whatever. I want that stone thrown.

The only shitty thing about this round so far is I haven't been able to solidify an alliance like I wanted to. I've been talking a lot to Drew, Chris, Christine, Ika and Rachelle, but have gotten nothing. No offer, no deals, no saying I trust you most or like you most, besides Drew but honestly I just assume he's saying that to everyone. So that's been a little shitty. I don't want to play too forward of a game and come off as too overbearing, so I don't want to be the one proposing these kinds of deals, but I want to be included in them so its tough. You don't want to be the person calling the shots, but you want to be in on the shots getting called. The struggle of finding that perfect balance.

I'm still not out of the woods yet though, POV will be interesting. The ideal situation would be for Drew to win, not change anything and just cruise on to the next round. But that seems like it will be too easy. Hopefully I'm wrong.

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^My reaction to the house meeting, DR coming later tonight.

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Oh man I better write that confessional now. HOH BABY!

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Holy camole, can you believe these past couple of days. Last round was intense, so I'll start there. Honestly I was in a tricky spot because I knew a lot of information, but couldn't tell anyone or use it. My bff Drew told me everything, so I felt really good because of that. But at the same time I was clearly on the outs, and everyone thought I was the MVP, so I was definitely in a tough spot. People said they liked me, but they weren't telling me that Rachelle nominated me, they weren't telling me about their group chat. It was all so fishy. And I gave them a lot of opportunity to to tell me, and I mean A LOT. I all but spelled out that I was looking for that specific response. And it's not lost on me that Drew was the only one who told me the truth.

So I was getting all the blame, and then Chris happened. Crazy Chris, honestly he's kinda like Chris from the actual show because he tries very hard to be dramatic and the star of the show, and well he definitely was the center of attention. He came to me with information about their being a group chat excluding us. 



It was funny how I had to pretend like I didn't already know this and that this was the first time hearing, but I did appreciate Chris telling me. Though he didn't tell me his source which was a Red Flag. I bet it was Rachelle though since he used the veto to save her. Anyways I still couldn't use this information to build bonds, because I didn't want to betray Chris, but then he was ahead and called a house meeting to call everyone out. PERFECT! And you know what I did, I went to fucking work. I pulled the "poor me" card on everyone. Saying how alienated I felt being the odd one out, and having everyone accuse me of being MVP. And the funny thing is I actually think they all ate it up, especially Rachelle, because she openly told me that she was the MVP that nominated me. Again....



I'll give her credit though, she's the only person to tell me that so far and I know the majority of them know. And again, honesty isn't lost on me. Do I forget the lies that have been told, hell no, but I can forgive and use these bonds to my advantage. Honestly there was an attempt to complicate this rounds voting but in my mind it was pretty cut and dry, save Craig, and Sheila goes. That's what the people wanted and besides Chris' strategy to turn shit upside down, we are at the Final 12 and its way too soon to make a big move. So I voted for Sheila, and Sheila went home. Now I'm still potentially on the outs but everything is a lot more fluid and because I played the poor me card, I'm feeling a bit better about my spot in the game and how people perceive me.

And now this is the real fun part... I actually won HOH!



This was the PERFECT round for me to win it too. Honestly there's something almost serendipitous about Big Brother where the people who need to win, win at the right moments. I feel like I needed this HoH, not for safety, but to position myself well in the game. So even before results I'm talking with Drew and we solidify our Final 2 alliance. To make it official we come up with a name and he even makes an epic graphic...



Honestly, I fucking love Drew. It doesn't get much better than that does it! We are now The International Men of Mystery, or IFF for short. Final 2 baby! Do I plan on honouring it, hell yes I do. Again Ive said it before and I'll say it again, Drew has been true to me this whole game when everyone else lied to me. That means a lot and I take it very seriously. Plus we would make one hell of an epic Final 2.

So once the results were revealed I knew I won without even checking the forum because suddenly I was Mr Popular. Now I know that I was iced because suddenly everyone wanted to be my best friend. Which I'm cool with chat me up, as I said I'm using the fluid portion of the game to solidify some alliances. My goal is to form a large alliance, then from there have some minor ones. Then I'll target Monet/Dan/Ivette since they don't speak with me. This HoH is all about making a big move, but that move isn't necessarily who I'm taking out of the game, its positioning myself for the rest of the game.

The first step was getting a core group together. Drew and I assessed that Shilpa and Christine would be good allies. He took Shilpa and I got Christine. I did so by proposing a final 2 with Christine. I don't plan on keeping that deal since I'm IMM to the end, but its good to have someone who thinks I'm closest to them. I even made sure it was Christine that brough up working with Drew instead of myself. The four of us made a group chat and we're officially "The Killers", not as original as IMM, but still a strong name. We are going to be a very underestimated alliance in this game, so I'm psyched about it. I don't think anyone is going to see it coming.



So my next steps are to solidify some more bonds. I've already started with Ika and Rachelle, but I also want to start working on Chris and Craig. These will be my biggest threats in this game, so I want to make sure I'm keeping my enemies close. I think they're most likely to win challenges, so I can't afford them not trusting me, and not working with me. I don't want to be the person they nominate or that and MVP nominates. So my goal is to turn everyone against Ivette/Monet/Dan. If they're not going to talk to us, then they gotta go.

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I don't think there's a better gif to describe this game right now, seriously. My HoH reign is over and honestly I think it was a success. I started this round wanting to make a core alliance and solidify as many bonds as I could while not screwing myself over in the long term by becoming too much of a threat. I think I accomplished that, and its been a bonus that so many people have decided to go completely batshit.

So where do I begin, last time in Ash's DR the Killers were formed.



First things first, Drew is like a graphics god. Seriously he's the best. Also I really like this alliance and I feel like its been tested a bit this round because of all the revelations from Monet and Ivette, and I think its legit. Shilpa and Christine don't really have much of a choice in this game so even though they're a bit shady, I trust that they'll stick with Drew and I. Speaking of shady, fucking Christine must be the shadiest bitch in this game. Honestly I believe it when Monet says she was last rounds MVP. Does that change me being aligned to her, no, but I still remember her not telling me about the group chat, and now also potentially allowing me to get framed for being MVP last round. Not a fan, but will keep her on my side. Shilpa was also a bit shady for not coming clean immediately about her alliance with Craig and Ivette, but whatever, I have a lot more ties than that floating around the game, so can't blame her for that, at least now she swears to us she's with us.

Honestly I feel pretty good about being with everyone in this game except maybe Ivette and Craig. Though not nominating them should keep me safe for the immediate future. Ive worked hard to solidify bonds with Chris, Ika and Rachelle. Rachelle and I speak a lot now, and she tells me all the time how much she trusts me and how glad she is to have me in this game. I would say this is about 80% HoH ass kissing and 20% truth. It'll have to be proven if she wins HoH and honestly that's the only reason I'm keeping her close. Its because I know she is a big threat to actually win these challenges. Besides me, her and Chris have been dominating forces in the game challenge wise. I don't mind coming off as a threat. With the MVP twist and the vote to save, its tricky backdooring someone in the game. Although we're a small alliance right now and couldn't control who was being evicted in the game, if one of us is on the block, 3 votes to save is enough to keep us in the game. This will keep us around for a couple of rounds and as the numbers in this game dwindle the opportunity to be backdoored does as well. So whatever at being perceived a threat. I would rather be feared or seen as an asset to my allies. There are big fish in this game and you need a big fish to win and take them out. I'll be the challenge guy for The Killers.

This next round is interesting because we're getting closer and closer to the stage where we will have to make a move and distinguish the sides in this round. Ideally I want to wait one more round to do that. Best case scenario for the next round, Rachelle wins HoH, nominates Dan and Ivette, a Killer wins MVP, nominates Ika/Craig. And then we'll have the power to figure out what happens. We need one more of the peripheral players to go before we start really taking over this game.

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Sorry for the lack of an update this round, I've just been super sick and busy, but trust me its coming and its going to be a big one. LOTS TO TALK ABOUT!